What is the meat of this blog...very good question my sweet friend, and Thank You. Well I think you kind of answered it when you said you see my heart for my children. I do use to keep family informed about what’s going on in our lives.
Originally I thought I would use it to talk out my concerns where someone else might be able to hash them out with their Mom, like for therapy. That can get very personal and you have to be prepared for comments from those who don‘t quite get the situation. All in all I think its about a Women whose childhood was wrong and wants to show how she is doing it right for her kids. A Women who loves God, her Husband, and her Children.
Maybe to prove to myself that all is going good and my babies will not have the kind of bad dreams like I had last night 1/31/10.
I was staying in my moms' house which is abandoned now. It was only me, not sure what provoked the dream my be my meds for the migraine? Well anyway I found a loose board up by a window that opened to a whole in the wall that had some pictures in it. These pictures were of me and my sister naked as children. Proof, Proof I kept shouting but as I got down and started flipping through the photo's they were coming up blank like some old Twilight Light movie.
Then I was wakened by the dog who wanted to go out at 1:23 in the morning, yes this part is real life. UGH At least the dream was over but very vivid.
Or maybe to show my kids and me how much I love there Dad and that he is good.
Sometimes I feel I just don’t have much to input. I look at other blogs and the women seem so happy and perfect maybe I was going for that??? I am simple. I am happy. I am loved. I am a hard worker though not to much any more. I was successful in the working world, I proved myself among some tuff, but good men. I am content. I have a compassion for others and I have seen a lot of ugly; so not much surprises me. I like to serve others that is my passion.
…I will get more personal with this!
Originally I thought I would use it to talk out my concerns where someone else might be able to hash them out with their Mom, like for therapy. That can get very personal and you have to be prepared for comments from those who don‘t quite get the situation. All in all I think its about a Women whose childhood was wrong and wants to show how she is doing it right for her kids. A Women who loves God, her Husband, and her Children.
Maybe to prove to myself that all is going good and my babies will not have the kind of bad dreams like I had last night 1/31/10.
I was staying in my moms' house which is abandoned now. It was only me, not sure what provoked the dream my be my meds for the migraine? Well anyway I found a loose board up by a window that opened to a whole in the wall that had some pictures in it. These pictures were of me and my sister naked as children. Proof, Proof I kept shouting but as I got down and started flipping through the photo's they were coming up blank like some old Twilight Light movie.
Then I was wakened by the dog who wanted to go out at 1:23 in the morning, yes this part is real life. UGH At least the dream was over but very vivid.
Or maybe to show my kids and me how much I love there Dad and that he is good.
Sometimes I feel I just don’t have much to input. I look at other blogs and the women seem so happy and perfect maybe I was going for that??? I am simple. I am happy. I am loved. I am a hard worker though not to much any more. I was successful in the working world, I proved myself among some tuff, but good men. I am content. I have a compassion for others and I have seen a lot of ugly; so not much surprises me. I like to serve others that is my passion.
…I will get more personal with this!
4 comments:
I love seeing (or reading about) your authentic self. Knowing the 'meat' of your world and what is TRUE from your perspective. Thank you for your honesty. My fervant prayer for you from now on will be 'no more bad dreams' only good and that they come true. Reading about other's lives and how they look so perfect is hard, but know that the the grass is only green where you water it. No one's life is PERFECT. If we were completely perfect and content on earth we would never SEEK heaven. I love you, I love getting to know you better (even from many miles away) and I love how open and honest you are. Keep pressing into those kiddos and leaning into that man :)
Wow!!!!!!!!!... not to much information.... I find it good therapy to write in my blog... I don't have a perfect life... so if I'm sad or troubled it helps to write it down... i really don't care if others don't write comments... just getting things out helps.. I do try to write about the good things in my life.... sometimes I forget to write about everything but I try ... so sorry you had a bad dream... you probably always will ,but you have shown that just because you had terrible things happen in your childhood does'nt mean that you are going to treat your children that way... that's what i love about you... some people might just continue the cycle.. but you stopped it... keep writing about it ... for me it helps me... I love you!!!
I'm sorry that I asked you for the meat of your blog, and at the same point, I am sooo not sorry! I hear and read this side of you! I know you love your family! I get that, and I love my family! However, no one decides to blog without a purpose! If that is, just to "let the fam know what's goin on" great! If started as a vent and a "hey fam, this is where I am" whether you approve or not, I am here, and I need your help!
Oh my your blog is both informational and heart-wrenching and intriguing! I promise, promise, promise if you write from your heart, most bloggers, will validate! And if they don't, Delete, their comments, just like our Father would! You are an amazing woman, getting passed the stuff that most regular women, wouldn never let go of! You are working through it! Kuddos to you! Thanks for the "MEAT"! Now, get to your heart again, if that includes, your meat of the blog, fantastic! If it doesn't, than know that you and your fam are trully loved! Us bloggers, will continue to follow! OH my, I so, totally connect with you now! You are my forever, bloggy friend and friend luv you!
Thank you for visiting my blog so I could find yours...You are a great writer..Life isn't perfect..and I love the way you picture it in words..
Have a great weekend,stay warm and stay happy..:)))
Greets from Holland
T.D and company
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